its been awhile since last update. well. dunno
wat gotten into me. But just some random thoughts that came across my mind.
here is a story i would like to share.
there's one mischievous boy in a particular sec sch, he is known for all sorts of nonsense like scolding teacher, not handing in assignment, inappropriate sch attire, disturbing others student/teachers, etc etc. if u can name it he had done it.
however there's
smth that this boy is willing to change his whole attitude, behaviors. he's in love with play basketball.
he play that almost everyday, during recess time, training, after school and even middle of the night. He not some damn pro player like
kobe bryant or
lebron james but he still make it into the sch
bball team.
he train and train
day after day
night after night
and one day before the big day arrive for him, he got into trouble(like always) and was send to the general office.
somehow as a teenager he felt damn
sha(proud) to stand outside of the office and soon enough the
DM came and told him that VP decided to banned him from the basketball match
tml. upon hearing that tears rolled down from his face, and he
doesnt understand why shit like this can actually happened to him. and this will always be a scars that resides deep down inside his heart.
moral of the story??
wat do u
tink?
okay. enough of story and back to blogging.
ppl who are reading this right now. let me start my post by asking u a question.
have u ever try giving something so much and result
aint wat u wanted it?
okay for my case. i did. i
wouldnt say i done
alot but i really give in my 100%
everytime. but somehow result
aint wat i wanted. and a thought came into my mind from time to time.
"
wat are you playing for?"
5 simple word yet i crack my brain and i cant
tink of the answer now.
"personal glory?"
"win?"
"teamwork?"
"friends?"
"fun?"
well. if u ask me some
mths ago, i would have answer it straight.! i play for friends and fun! but not anymore.
im not saying that friends are not by my side at this very moment but rather i need a real friend now.
i dun need someone to pat me at the shoulder and telling me good job/well done/ nice one whenever i done something right. and
fcuking me up the next moment if i done something wrong.
once someone told me that every different player have to be treated differently, some dont need much scolding for them to grow and some need to be fcuk in order for them to learn.
is this really that case?
well. honestly i dunno the answer however frm my perspective i disagree with that. just because if a player that can take all the scolding doesnt mean tt's the best way for he/she.
or at least be fair to everyone instead.
tink about it when personA and personB done the same mistake and personA gets scolding until jialat2 while personB get encouragement. how would the personA feels? just tink abt that.?
i used to say this " ....we are one big family called......" i really meant it whenever i said that, but recently i been tinking. am i really part of the family? or rather does the family treat me as one?. and i really dunno anymore..
well.. now ask yourself...
"What are you really playing for?"'
okay.. time to wear back mask and be the clown again xD
well.. gonna end this post with a lyrics..
ciaoOooOooOooOoOoOooOoOoOoOOOoOooOoOOoOoOoOo
Can you leave me here alone now
I don't wanna hear you say
That you know me
That I should be
Always doing what you say
‘Cause I'm trying get through today
And there's one thing I know
I don't wanna think about you
Or think about me
Don't wanna figure this out
I don't wanna think about you
Or think about nothing
Don't wanna talk this one out
I won't let you bring me down
‘Cause I know
I don't wanna think about you
Don't wanna think about you
When I wake up here tomorrow
Things will never be the same
'Cause I won't wait
'Cause you won't change
And you'll always be this way
Now I'm gonna get through today
And there's one thing I know
I don't wanna think about you
Or think about me
Don't wanna figure this out
I don't wanna think about you
Or think about nothing
Don't wanna talk this one out
This time I won't let you bring me down
Won't let you shut me out
This time I know
I don't wanna think about you
Run away, run away
Running as fast as I can
Run away, run away
I'll never come back again
Run away, run away
Don't wanna think about you
Or think about me
Don't wanna figure this out
Don't wanna think about you
Or think about me
Don't wanna talk this one out
I don't wanna think about you
Or think about me
Don't wanna figure this out
I don't wanna think about you
Or think about nothing
Don't wanna talk this one out
This time I won't let you bring me down
Won't let you shut me out
This time I know
I don't wanna think about you
Run away, run away
Don't wanna think about you
Run away, run away
Don't wanna think about you
Run away, run away
Don't wanna think about you
Run away, run away