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Wednesday, August 19, 2009

its been awhile since last update. well. dunno wat gotten into me. But just some random thoughts that came across my mind.
here is a story i would like to share.

there's one mischievous boy in a particular sec sch, he is known for all sorts of nonsense like scolding teacher, not handing in assignment, inappropriate sch attire, disturbing others student/teachers, etc etc. if u can name it he had done it.
however there's smth that this boy is willing to change his whole attitude, behaviors. he's in love with play basketball.
he play that almost everyday, during recess time, training, after school and even middle of the night. He not some damn pro player like kobe bryant or lebron james but he still make it into the sch bball team.
he train and train
day after day
night after night
and one day before the big day arrive for him, he got into trouble(like always) and was send to the general office.
somehow as a teenager he felt damn sha(proud) to stand outside of the office and soon enough the DM came and told him that VP decided to banned him from the basketball match tml. upon hearing that tears rolled down from his face, and he doesnt understand why shit like this can actually happened to him. and this will always be a scars that resides deep down inside his heart.

moral of the story?? wat do u tink?

okay. enough of story and back to blogging. ppl who are reading this right now. let me start my post by asking u a question.

have u ever try giving something so much and result aint wat u wanted it?
okay for my case. i did. i wouldnt say i done alot but i really give in my 100% everytime. but somehow result aint wat i wanted. and a thought came into my mind from time to time.
"wat are you playing for?"
5 simple word yet i crack my brain and i cant tink of the answer now.

"personal glory?"
"win?"
"teamwork?"
"friends?"
"fun?"

well. if u ask me some mths ago, i would have answer it straight.! i play for friends and fun! but not anymore. im not saying that friends are not by my side at this very moment but rather i need a real friend now.
i dun need someone to pat me at the shoulder and telling me good job/well done/ nice one whenever i done something right. and fcuking me up the next moment if i done something wrong.

once someone told me that every different player have to be treated differently, some dont need much scolding for them to grow and some need to be fcuk in order for them to learn.
is this really that case?
well. honestly i dunno the answer however frm my perspective i disagree with that. just because if a player that can take all the scolding doesnt mean tt's the best way for he/she.
or at least be fair to everyone instead.
tink about it when personA and personB done the same mistake and personA gets scolding until jialat2 while personB get encouragement. how would the personA feels? just tink abt that.?

i used to say this " ....we are one big family called......" i really meant it whenever i said that, but recently i been tinking. am i really part of the family? or rather does the family treat me as one?. and i really dunno anymore..
well.. now ask yourself...

"What are you really playing for?"'


okay.. time to wear back mask and be the clown again xD
well.. gonna end this post with a lyrics..
ciaoOooOooOooOoOoOooOoOoOoOOOoOooOoOOoOoOoOo


Can you leave me here alone now
I don't wanna hear you say
That you know me
That I should be
Always doing what you say
‘Cause I'm trying get through today
And there's one thing I know

I don't wanna think about you
Or think about me
Don't wanna figure this out
I don't wanna think about you
Or think about nothing
Don't wanna talk this one out
I won't let you bring me down
‘Cause I know
I don't wanna think about you
Don't wanna think about you

When I wake up here tomorrow
Things will never be the same
'Cause I won't wait
'Cause you won't change
And you'll always be this way
Now I'm gonna get through today
And there's one thing I know

I don't wanna think about you
Or think about me
Don't wanna figure this out
I don't wanna think about you
Or think about nothing
Don't wanna talk this one out
This time I won't let you bring me down
Won't let you shut me out
This time I know
I don't wanna think about you

Run away, run away
Running as fast as I can

Run away, run away
I'll never come back again

Run away, run away

Don't wanna think about you
Or think about me
Don't wanna figure this out
Don't wanna think about you
Or think about me
Don't wanna talk this one out

I don't wanna think about you
Or think about me
Don't wanna figure this out
I don't wanna think about you
Or think about nothing
Don't wanna talk this one out
This time I won't let you bring me down
Won't let you shut me out
This time I know
I don't wanna think about you

Run away, run away
Don't wanna think about you
Run away, run away
Don't wanna think about you
Run away, run away
Don't wanna think about you

Run away, run away


. 1:42 AM


Tuesday, August 11, 2009

I open my eyes
I try to see but Im blinded by the white light
I cant remember how
I cant remember why
Im lying here tonight
And I cant stand the pain
And I cant make it go away
No I cant stand the pain
How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
Ive got no where to run
The night goes on
As Im fading away
Im sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybodys screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
Im slipping off the edge
Im hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again
So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I cant explain what happened
And I cant erase the things that Ive done
No I cantHow could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
Ive got no where to run
The night goes on
As Im fading away
Im sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
Ive got no where to run
The night goes on
As Im fading away
Im sick of this life
I just wanna scream

How could this happen to me


. 7:08 PM


Friday, May 29, 2009

I cant sleep
Everything I ever knew
Is a lie, without you

I cant breathe
When my heart is broke in two
There's no beat
Without you

You're not gone, but you're not here
Is this the way it seems tonight
If we could try to end these wars
I know that we can make it right
'Cause baby

I don't wanna fight no more
I forgot what we were fighting for
And this loneliness that's in my heart
Won't let me be apart from you

I don't wanna have to try
Girl to live without you in my life
So, I'm hoping we can start tonight
'Cause I don't wanna fight, no more

How can I live
When everything that I adore
And everything I'm living for
Girl its in you

I can't dream
Sleepless nights have got me by
The only dream I ever had
Is being with you

I know that we can make it right
Its gonna take a little time
Lets not leave ourselves with no way out
Lets not cross that line (that line)

I don't wanna fight no more
I forgot what we were fighting for
And this loneliness thats in my heart
Won't let me be apart from you

I don't wanna have to try
Girl to live without you in my life
So, I'm hoping we can start tonight
'Cause I don't wanna fight, no more

Remember that, I made a vow
That I will never let you go
I meant it then, I mean it now
And I wanna tell you so

I don't wanna fight no more (oh no)
I forgot what we were fighting for
And this loneliness thats in my heart
Won't let me be apart from you

I don't wanna have to try
Girl to live without you in my life
So, I'm hoping we can start tonight (can we start)
Cause I don't wanna fight, no more

I don't wanna fight no more
I forgot what we were fighting for
And this loneliness thats in my heart
Won't let me be apart from you

I don't wanna have to try
Girl to live without you in my life
So, I'm hoping we can start tonight
Cause I dont wanna fight, no more
Its a lie, without you, without you


. 11:34 PM


Monday, May 11, 2009

Disc Knight
First game for Dk white is vs shiok.
well.. it's surely not the best nor a good start for dk.
the final score line is 17-2.
we lost badly..
i guess all of our moral drop all the way down.
it remind me of last year last year sing open period.
dk second team vs shiok. the result are similar somehow.
well.. i tink moral is key of winning/losing.
so we shld all keep our head up high and never let it down. if not we will just be sinking w/o a trace.

we will come back stronger! cos we are Disc knight!


. 9:38 AM